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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Last Updated: 22.06.2025 07:48

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

It was going to be , some day.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

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And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

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I was scared of men, in general

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

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But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

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Im still living with it.

I think the readers, may guess!

Would this be the day?

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As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Have you ever accidentally seen your mother-in-law doing something that was private to her?

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

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And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Could humans be selectively bred, like dogs, to create 2 subspecies that can no longer have offspring? Do I not understand selective breeding properly? Im not worried about the moral implications, just the science please.

When she asked me how she looked .

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

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I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

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Ive learnt so much.

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But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

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He knew the spot.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I was 9 years of age.

When did you realize that your childhood was not normal?

My mum and dad in the seventies!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

What did i know ?

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I said to her

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

So, i spoilt her more .

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I could never make a relationship work though!

I write beautiful poetry .

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

He resisted the act ,that day.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

We were not on the streets..

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

But ive been too sick for many years..

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I don,t even have a pension.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

One cannot live in the past .

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

He was dying to do it , i knew.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

She married twice! .

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

But, we were locked up after school.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Put me off passion for life!!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

She loved him until the end.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

She found it foreign!.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

I was very sick at this time too.

All the time i was locked up.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

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I waited trembling.

I have no regrets .

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

But it wasn’t much.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I never cut or harmed myself..

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Comes on , in middle age.

(And it was in our own minds.)

This is soul school!.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

And i lived it daily.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

My family never makes their pension either.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Was to survive, this bastard.

She wouldn,t have been !

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I was seconnd youngest,

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

My life is so biszare .

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

We all went to grammer schools

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

She was in good health!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Especially a lifetime of it.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I will be 64.

Why did i forgive my father ?

I couldn’t, believe it.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Who then, do I blame.?

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

So whats the point in blame.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers