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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 00:12

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Can you share the entire summary of your spiritual life?

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

And i lived it daily.

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My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Why do men say women hit the wall at 24?

It was going to be , some day.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I write beautiful poetry .

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Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Was to survive, this bastard.

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The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

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So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

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Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

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He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Summer here, the one who debunks atheism. Isn’t it funny how atheists always say they prefer a “no-nonsense, evidence-based approach” to understanding the world, but when I bring up logical arguments for theism, they suddenly clam up?

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

At what stage in your life did you realize, "No, I can't do this any more" and walk out? Why?

Im still living with it.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

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But, we were locked up after school.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

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Would this be the day?

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

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He was dying to do it , i knew.

She was in good health!

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And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I could never make a relationship work though!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I don,t even have a pension.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

We were not on the streets..

What did i know ?

She married twice! .

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Comes on , in middle age.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

When she asked me how she looked .

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

But ive been too sick for many years..

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I think the readers, may guess!

So, i spoilt her more .

I will be 64.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

My life is so biszare .

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

But it wasn’t much.

We all went to grammer schools

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

He knew the spot.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I said to her

Why did i forgive my father ?

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

He resisted the act ,that day.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I waited trembling.

(And it was in our own minds.)

This is soul school!.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Put me off passion for life!!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

She found it foreign!.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I was seconnd youngest,

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I was 9 years of age.

I couldn’t, believe it.

I was very sick at this time too.

My family never makes their pension either.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Ive learnt so much.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I was scared of men, in general

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I have no regrets .

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

One cannot live in the past .

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

As i do to all so called friends.?

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Especially a lifetime of it.

She wouldn,t have been !

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

She loved him until the end.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I never cut or harmed myself..

Im dying but, im not bitter.

So whats the point in blame.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Who then, do I blame.?

All the time i was locked up.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.